End of July

Hey everyone, three months is quickly approaching and Landen is such a good boy. He sleeps all through the night and has for about a week now. I put him down at 10:30 and I wake him up at 6:30 so he can be fed, changed and taken to the sitters. I would love to just let him sleep but I have to get him up and going.

Jeff is such a great dad. He is becoming more and more attached as Landen becomes more of a little man. I feel warm inside everytime I see them together.

Landen is starting to recognize and get excited when I walk into the room. I love that look he gets like he can't wait for me to pick him up. I love being a mom and Jeff and I have talked about if we want another baby or if this is enough. Keep in mind we have a 13 year old girl too.

Since Landen is almost 3 months I set up pictures for the family in August. I need to go pick out some cute outfits so he looks really cute.

Well I need to go but will post soon. here are some pictures.

Landen is 2 months old

It has been two months since my last post. My life has been turned upside down and I love everything that little boy has brought. Landen is the best thing (besides my husband and step daughter and family) that has ever happen to me. I think about him all day long and since I have been back to work, I can't wait to pick him up and just hold him all night.

A big part of me wishes that I stayed home with him but then part of me likes having my own identity with my job. There were times during the 8 weeks at home that I got restless and needed some adult interaction. I also like having the second income for security reasons. But man I would love to play with Landen and watch him grow and be able to see all the firsts for myself instead of possibly hearing about them from the sitter.

My mom is watching him 2 days a week and I am really happy she is taking on this adventure. She is so in love with him and it makes me feel so at peace. I never in my wildest dreams thought that being a parent would be this emotionally consuming. I knew I would love him and want to protect and provide for him. The feelings I have are so much more than that.

Just a little update on the little man. Landen was born on May 11, 2010 at 9:53 a.m by way of c-section. Jeff and I went to the doctor on the 10th to have an ultrasound because I was over my due date and I hadn't gone into labor. The tech doing the ultrasound said the baby was registering 11 lbs 11 oz. Jeff and I were in total shock because I wasn't that big. My doctor told me that they were going to schedule a c-section for the next day.

A c-section was the one thing that I didn't want. The rest of the day I was so nervous and excited at the same time. I didn't want someone cutting me open but then I knew I would have my baby boy in my arms that day.

Jeff and I went early to the hospital and got prepped for the surgery. In the operating room, Jeff wasn't allowed in until they had given me my spinal. I was already somewhat drugged and I freaked out when they stuck me with that needle. I was bawling and couldn't seem to stop. When they stuck me with the needle, I sat up a little (which is really bad) and caused them to have to do it again. By the time Jeff was allowed in the room my pulse was racing. I couldn't seem to calm down. All the smells and people running around and anticipation of the baby I was about to meet made me freak out even more.

But Jeff was there to calm me down and he was able to see our baby boy take his first breath. I should say our little man because Landen came out weighing 11 lbs and 22.5 inches long and hasn't quit growing since.

I take him to the doctor on the 15th for his 2 month check up and shots and I know they will tell me he weighes 15 pounds and is 24.5 inches long. But he is so precious and perfect. About a month ago he started to smile and laugh and every time he does those things, my world is perfect.

Due Date

So I am officially at my due date and still no baby. :-( I went to the doctor yesterday and she said I had moved from 1 cm to 3 cm from 39 to 40 weeks. That was a teaser because it got my hopes up that it would happen last night. Obviously I am blogging today because it didn't.

Today I feel drained. I would love to have stayed in bed and slept the day away. But no luck, I am at work. I have my utlrasound Monday and then we will go from there. It is a wait and see game Landen and I are playing. He is currently winning.

Still Waiting

The last time I posted I was 3 weeks away from my due date. Now I am 2 days away and still no signs that my little one is going to be here soon. I can't help but be frustrated. This waiting game has been the hardest part for me so far. I guess I shouldn't complain because Landen is healthy and happy (kicks the poop out of me).

I go back on Wednesday and then if nothing changes I am going to have an ultrasound on Monday to see if I need to be induced. The doctor told me the latest she would induce would be the 16th of May. That is TWO weeks away. I don't think I can make it that long. I know Jeff is getting annoyed or at least I would be at me for talking about it all the time. But it is again all I think about.

Hopefully my next post will be with pictures of Landen. Hopefully.

3 weeks left

So I have three weeks left and I am going crazy. I keep asking people if they went early or late like it really matters for my pregnancy. Last week I went to the doctor for my 36 week checkup and there wasn't any progress. This week I know he has dropped a little because I can breathe better. Landen has been sitting really high and there is a noticable drop this week. Today is the end of 37 so that means full term. I am glad I was able to give Landen enough time to develop and grow like he needed. Tomorrow I go again for a doctor's visit and maybe they will tell me I am starting labor. A girl can only hope. I will keep everyone posted on what the outcome for tomorrow is.

Starting Contractions

Tomorrow will be my first actual exam for 36 weeks. They are going to tell me if the baby is down. If they can't tell, I will have an ultrasound done. I hope the doctors can't tell so I can have an ultrasound that insurance will cover. It will be so great to see Landen tomorrow. Last time I saw him, he was still an alien. Now he is a little boy with hair and fingernails and fat. I have 4 weeks to go and am getting very impatient. I am not that uncomfortable but everytime I feel anything, I secretly hope that is leads to labor. Landen needs at least 1 more week inside to fully develop. I can't wait to meet him.

Down to 6 weeks

I had my 34 week appointment this morning and the doctor said I am right on schedule. Part of me doesn't want to be on schedule because I am getting very uncomfortable. But the stronger part wants my little boy to be heathly and happy which means a little more discomfort for mom. In the end it will be so worth it but as the days and nights drag on, I need to find something to focus my mind on. Work doesn't seem to help. I can't keep my mind on anything productive.

Jeff and I had our last shower on Sunday and there were so many people there. Probably around 50 including kids piled in my basement. Everyone was so nice and truly care about Landen. Jeff and I both took off on Monday and went to the store to grab the remaining items we needed for the baby. We got a stroller with a car seat, a high chair and the play pen plus some odds and ends that we needed. Besides a few pieces of decor that will go on the wall, we are done with the room. I will post some pics later when everything is finished.

Well, I probably should get off and do something productive. :-) hard as of late. Post more later.

Not much longer now

Hey everyone, I have 7 1/2 weeks left until I meet my baby boy. Sounds weird to think that I will be a mommy. I am already a mom to my step daughter Loren but I have never had the responsibility of a baby before. I hope I know what to do. I have had dreams lately of messing up and I don't want to do that. I don't think I will go the whole 7 weeks so I need to get on the ball with all the baby things I need. I have my last shower on Sunday and then off to the store to buy all the other items. Jeff has been wonderful through the whole process. He is so excited to have a little boy to carry on his name. However, nothing will change the bond that Loren and Jeff have because they pretty much grew up together. She will always have that special something in him. It is wonderful to see. Anyway, I will let you all go but will post more later.

First Post

This is my first post on my family bog. Just testing out the water. Expect more to come.